I just crowned my most embarissing moment a few minutes ago.....omfg......I'm so happy noone saw. fuck!!! HAHAHA hella embarissing.........omg

It's official!!!

I decided to get back to the gym. Starting Monday....because I know I'm probably going to gain a lot of weight with Thanksgiving tomorrow.....lol

I bought a planner!! It's super cute. I drew an elephant on it :)

Thanksgiving/Bike.

Thanksgiving is just around the corner. I can't wait because I get to see my sister who I haven't seen in such a long time. The last time she came home was....my birthday...She just got me some new toe clips for my bike which I'm excited about. The toeclips that I have right now are kinda iffy.

I need to bike more! I'm excited to bike around and explore the next day I'm off from work. I've been busy with work, school, and everything else that I had no time to bike. I'm planning on going back to the gym soon though. Maybe switch over to Fitness USA? or maybe stay at Fitness 19? I have to pay some monthly fees that I'm late on at Fitness 19 though....gotta start paying for those.

Reminder to self:

• Doctor's appointment tomorrow.
• Buy a planner.
• Pay the Fitness 19 fee--decide whether or not to go back.
• Sleep earlier.
• Plan out thanksgiving..........Black Friday work 1AM-930AM.
  

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After 2-3 months of the relationship, I called it quits.
I didn't cry. In fact, I didn't shed one single tear. I wasn't really surprised because all my tears probably went into the week of my period. Jesus Christ...I cried practically everyday...3 times a day. The reason why I thought it was best to break up was because...I couldn't deal with it anymore. I couldn't sit and suffer through the arguments we had anymore. It started off with little arguments. fixable. Then built up to a couple arguments a week. During the arguments, I don't tend to scream, yell or raise my voice which is rarely. I'm just chill. I don't like being yelled at. I shouldn't be yelled at. I shouldn't be yelled at for buying myself food because I was hungry. I shouldn't be yelled at in the afternoon if I forgot to call or text in the morning because I was running late. I don't like guys punching walls when they're angry. or guys that are too clingy. I know no ones perfect. I'm not perfect. But I don't want to be in a relationship when I know I'm not happy.

" For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever. "

Love,
Jenny

Dream

Last night...a confusing dream. I was in a shootout with about 5 other people in a weird scenery. cages, rain, blocks of wood...I felt like I was in one of Dino's video games. MW2? haha...just kidding. But seriously though, I was so scared in my dream...I didn't want to shoot people and I was running away from this killer that kept following me. I ended up running out of bullets and ended up hiding behind a big flock of grass. They ended up finding me and I suddenly woke up afterwords.....

Love,
Jenny

More Twilight.....

After school, I picked up Dino around 12:30 and headed to Great Mall to watch Twilight-New Moon. I would say I was a wee bit early....I guess, about 3 hours early? With all the spare time we had, we walked around, talked, ate Hot Dog on a Stick. We also went into the NEW Forever21 because Dino had to talk to his managers. Today was their first official day opened. Walking inside for the first time, I felt so overwhelmed with everything. I didn't know where to look or where to go. So I just walked around and skimmed what I could. If you think the Forever21 in Valley fair is big....wait till you see the one in Great Mall....It's about 4 times bigger! After attempting to look at everything but ending up getting a headache, I decided to just sit outside on the bench. Tomorrow morning is Forever21's OFFICIAL grand opening. They will be handing out gift cards for the first 400 people that show up. I'm still debating if I would like to go or not. I have work at 1pm and I feel like I should be sleeping in for once. But anyways, after the whole Forever 21 drama we left to go eat.

We arrived at Century Theaters about an hour early. We hung out in the arcade and played some pinball which was super fun! Outside the auditorium, there was a small line forming already. We couldn't go in until the ushers cleaned out the auditorium. When they were about to let us in which I think was around 3:30, I looked at the line behind me and it was super long already. I told Dino to hold the drink with two hands and to try to catch up with me. I held the cotton candy and the popcorn. I'm such a loser but I had to admit that I did some shoving to get good seats. Center row and middle. I already knew what to expect when watching Twilight-New Moon the day it comes out, screaming Twilight fanatics. When the lights turned off and the movie started, girls from every corner of the auditorium was applauding and screaming, "Team Jacob! Team Edward!" Especially when Jacob appeared on screen shirtless, all the girls were screaming! It was crazy madness.

Overall, the movie in my opinion is good, not great. There was too much high expectation. In my opinion, the book is much better. :)

Love,
Jenny

Twihards!!!!

Before work, I parked in front of Century Theaters to change the time of the movie from 9:35am to 3:55pm. Shit happened. So...work was so long and tiring as usual. I felt as if it would never end! My dad came to visit and ended up buying a sweater. He was rumaging to find a size small but couldn't find one so he knocked a big stack that I just folded to find one....I got so irritated!!! But I still love him. Then after work, I helllla forgot I parked infront of Century Theaters so I had to walk all the way over there :( But I got a change to look at the crazy Twilight line! Check it out.....

Super Crazy! I'm glad I didn't go to the midnight premeire. Would've probably had to wait there for ages! haha. Right when I got home, I opened a can of Chicken Noodle Soup. It's so warm and delicious! Kind've watery though but it's ok. It's making me full enough. I need to sleep soon, I have school tomorrow. No work tomorrow & Payday! YAY! I love getting paid every Friday. :)

Love,
Jenny

Lately for a while now, I've been really scared to come home after work. I don't feel safe in my house like anything can happen at any time. I don't like the feeling of being at home alone and not having curtains on my kitchen and family room windows. When I come home from work, I call Dino right when I land in the driveway because I tend to have a feeling that someone is watching me. Especially hearing about the Santa Theresa student stabbing and the Halloween homicide....on story road.....like seriously??? I use to live on story road!!!! =(

It's early morning about 7 am right now and I'm about to get ready to go to a MANDATORY staff meeting......ugh, gonna stop by starbucks. but Last night, I had one of the best sleeps ever!

THE BOX is a wierd movie.......I didn't like it =/ Kinda scary for me and just plain weird.

BIG BAYYYBAYY

I forgot what a good sleep felt like. How come noone notified me about the new people closing rule?? Did they just come up with this shit??? Tomorrow will be my 3rd night closing in a row...thats 5 times this week already i believe? Last night I came home around 1230 in the morning......I didnt even get a lunch cause the manager forgot about me and this awesome black guy that i work with!! lol So i think the managers are in trouble for not givin me a lunch but whatever. i wasnt hungry anyways just tired!!! I need to invest in some better black shoes. I'm so tired and stressed out....just thinking about Black Friday makes me cringe and makes me want to fall on the floor and just lay there for hours.....ugh.

I come home from closing and I'm grumpy. I feel bad for my dad cause lately ive been talking to him in such a rude tone. I'm just irritated and tired of my lack of sleep. Then having to wake up for school. But I know theres other people out there that have it much worse than me! I sleep grumpy than I wake up MORE grumpy which isnt pretty at all.....then i tend to snooze which makes me late which doesnt give me any time to eat anything. Then i rush to school and hit every red light and get in trouble and its all the same old bullshit. Lol....total vent session is needed!!!!

For those who is wondering what happened with Coach. Well lets just say those dumbasses lost my application and forgot all about me! so i ended up calling them nonstop and just gave up ....lol whatever. I have another job interview tomorrow at Urban Outfitters. I'm seriously trying to get the fuck out of greatmall. I cant stand smelling anymore smelly people then end up having to spray Calvin Klein colon all over myself that makes me sneeze 3 goddamn times in a row. lol

I havnt even had the change to read the new book I bought at borders a couple nights ago!!! i really hope i can start on it soon. But anyways, on the brighter side....i'm ashamed/embarissed to say this but totally excited just to talk about it but ......... I bought my twilight-new moon tickets yesterday....LOL!!!!! HAHAHAHA im not going at midnight though. gonna go in the morning with dino. I know he wants to watch it but he's just embarissed to admit it.

Love,
Jenny

CK

Today was my first day at Calvin Klein! Since I havn't worked in a while I was really tired when my 4 hours was up...I mostly helped with the floor set because it was pretty slow. On weekdays, I have to wear all black and weekends I wear a while top and black pants. haha. My life no longer consists of color =(

After work, I visited my old workplace...GAP! Aww, I miss everyone there. They want me to come back for the Friends & Family event but I'll think about it. (If I can even go back..) Lol... A few of them are planning on taking me to a Gay Club which....should be highly interesting...

Love,
Jenny

Note To Self

Buy a planner!

Love,
Jenny

Smoke is bad for you!!

Last night, I went home after a couple hours of training at Calvin Klein (Yes, i work there now..). As soon as I get home; my dad asks me to drive him to Savemart then to his friends house. So I did. After dropping him off....I was EXTREMELY close to going over to Dino's house but I listened to my stomach which at the time was growling like a bear so I just drove home.

I parked the car in the driveway...

As soon as I got out, I sniffed the air and it smelled really....BURNT...so I take a few steps closer to my door and didn't really smell much but the fresh air cause I was moving around. But as soon as I reach the front door with the keys in my hand...I smell smoke coming from inside my house. I got really scared so I put the key in and turned it slow because I know it was coming from inside =(!! I opened the door and then opened my kitchen door noticing nothing but smoke covering my whole kitchen. I could barely see (not exaggerating!!) I started coughing and I noticed the pot that my dad ACCIDENTALLY left on HIGH was hella smokey and shit...so I rushed to get a towel and through it on the pot and ran outside and placed it on the floor. I ran back inside to get my phone but I couldn't find it!!! and I couldn't find my house phone....Ugh! I ran to my car coughing... got my phone and called my dad...his friend drove him back home...not even wearing shoes, he runs in and starts opening windows to air out the smoke. and you know what he does???

He yells at me...for not turning on the hoofer w.e it's called and windows and stuff. UGH! I was so mad that I yelled at him....not my fault...

Love,
Jenny