After the store closed, my coworker and I just chatted up as my manger counted the registers. She made a statement at me which made me realize the who she really was. A bitch."I want to give you a makeover." and I'm like...why would you want to do that? and she said "because...you dress so tomboyish" and she started critiquing me, telling me not to wear my vans with skinny's. and that i should put my hair down instead of tieing it up. That she wants to teach me how to walk in heels, how to wear makeup and all this bullshit. As i was listening to her critiquing me...I was just thinking to myself like...i dont give a fuck what you say because i dress how I dress. I don't dress to impress anyone....I dress how I want to...which is simple, comfortable, and relaxed. I'm sorry to say that I don't dress the way some people would want me to...but I'm just not that type of gal that could shop for hours, and spend a ridiculous amount of money on clothes that are "in style" right now. I will say this a million times...I'm a gap girl. Nothing more, nothing less. I'm happy with the way I dress, how I look. When I feel like it, I'll throw on a dress, shorts, and heels....how dare she speak to me the way she did. "I don't like ugly girls." BITCH, you the ugly one.

Love,
Jenny

I'm still young. I'm still learning, growing, and experiencing new shit everyday. All I want is to have fun, live life everyday and never look back. All I want is to be happy. =)

Love,
Jenny

Asian Alert

I still have a lot of questions left unanswered...but I think it's best if I rather not know.
I'm never dating an Asian guy every again unless there's an Asian guy that can prove me wrong.
Which I doubt!

Love,
Jenny

Right now I just want to escape from all this household bullshit I live in. I want to move out ASAP.

Love,
Jenny

Craigslist

I just put myself up on facebook as a joke and curiousity.
In the first 2 hours I got 95 e-mails. Holyhell

My favorite one so far..."I'm tired of masturbating. Let's meet up"

Love,
Jenny

Although seeing you last night was tough, I still managed to have a lot of fun
I havn't had fun in so long...and surprisingly last night, I was sober! After Jay's birthday kickit, Aaron, Andy, James and I all went to some park on San Felipe. Chill ass night looking down at the view. I havn't been myself in a while so it was great to just let loose. Aaron told me to scream on top of my lungs and just let go of all the emotions in me...so i did and it felt so good!

Went to a lesbian party last night...the host was drunk and rude. First time going on cloud9 last night also. It was a crazy feeling...couldn't feel my body....ohgawd

Love,
Jenny

JUNE 4th! I have anticipated this day for quite some time now...
I think I can only get 15 tickets. I highly doubt that's enough for the number of people that want to go. I was thinking about it the other day...the only people I want to go are people that I has been there for me while I was at Foothill. Family and friends that know who I am and what I've been through. People who I could always count on and people that mean a lot to me. Just thinking about it makes me so excited...man...less than a month. I'm so proud of myself for making it through that school.

Love,
Jenny

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over analyzing a situation ; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could ve, would’ve happened..or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on." - Tupac

Ventin

I never thought I'd be one of those girls that 'got played' I should've known all along what I was getting myself into...I found myself venting to everyone that came across me. But what good does that do? Nothing. I have cried and vented to my sister and friends. I've made him look like a total jackass (which he is). But, it doesn't make me happy talking about it. It doesn't make me happy talking about how he played me. Everytime I talk about it, it makes me want to burst into tears. How can I let some guy do this to me? Trust me, I've learned from this.

After all the guys I've dated, for once, I know what it's like being hurt. I know that the only person that can help me is myself. Honestly, I think I'm afraid of being alone. Being by myself on valentines day, or just not having someone's hand to hold. Right now, I just need to relax and do my own thing. I need to stop lying to my sister than admitting what I did after...I need to stop venting to people about my problems when they probably don't even want to hear it. I'm just going to learn from this experience, take it in, and exept that it fucking happened. I dated a jerk. So what.

Love,
Jenny

"Learn from this. Grow from it. And be a stronger person."

If it didn't work out, it didn't work out.

For the first time, I'm asking myself, "What the fuck did I do wrong?"

Nothing. I know I did nothing wrong, asshole.

Love,
Jenny

Something guys should know about me...

Don't expect a girl that dresses trendy, high class, or all that forever 21 bullshit...
I like to consider myself a simple gap gal.
All i need is jeans, a simple vneck, and sneakers.

Love,
Jenny

Usually in every relationship I get into or every guy i start dating....I'm usually the one that ends up hurting the guy. The reason as to why my relationships don't work? Maybe it's the fact that the guy is so predictable and boring or the fact that I'm too much for them to handle. When I find a guy that I'm afraid he'll hurt me...yeah he's a keeper.

Love,
Jenny